Deadbeat

Mocked by blurred out faces
Grin the same, but always shifting places
And from what I see
No-one else is aware, is it only me?

God, erase me
I'm doomed and I'm slowly going fucking crazy
Cursed to look just like you
My own mother is too afraid to face me

Formative years soaked in grey
A childhood spent running just so we could feel safe
But you knew then, and you know it still
The apathy in your eyes would slowly kill me

I feel the sting of wind and rain
Yet it won't wash away all this fucking shame
Every crash leaves a deafening silence
Cautioning impending violence

Mocked by blurred out faces
Grin the same, but always shifting places
So when you look at me
You can see the product that trauma breeds

I lost all sense of family
The day you tried to murder my mother and me
No love, no reparations
For a deadbeat cunt

I lost all sense of family

The day you tried to murder my mother and me