Worst Of All

C             G
Hope is not a plan
Dm                   D
It’s a good creature but it can’t do much
C                    G
It’s a loser that is holding on
Dm                   D
Yet I yearn for finally giving up
C                    G
Faith is evil and it yanks my chain
Dm               D
Puppy crying all in vain
C          G                Dm                  D
I am sad I still deal with all the same things that I once did

[Chorus 1]

C                            G      Dm  D
I want all the things that I never had (ah)
C                         G      Dm         D
The things that normals take for granted, I’m sad
C                 G      Dm     D
A brain and a body not in war
C              G    Dm     D
Something to keep living for
C               G       Dm       D
I cry forever lay at your feet
C                 G      Dm    D
Wanting caring, wanting sleep (ah)
   C            G      Dm  D
But thinking I did worst of all
C                G      Dm  D
Cannot allow it

[Verse 2]

C                     G
So I slit my inner arms up
Dm               D
Pulling all the tissue out
C                  G        Dm           D
Creating rivers from my shoulders to my thumbs
C                   G
I wanna take all the bad things
        Dm                         D
All the things I didn’t think that I had to deal with
C           G          Dm     D
And I wanna pull it all out of me
C                                  G
There are things in here that I didn’t put there
             Dm             D
They were forced in me and now they’re glued
      C           G          Dm
And please don’t yell don’t scream
        D     C
Or I feel unreal
    G   Dm       D  C
I am scared of you
       G Dm        D
But I am          scared of myself too

[Chorus 2]

C                            G      Dm  D
I want all the things that I never had (ah)
C                         G      Dm         D
The things that normals take for granted, I’m sad
C                 G      Dm     D
A brain and a body not in war
C              G    Dm     D
Something to keep living for
C               G       Dm       D
I cry forever lay at your feet
C                 G      Dm    D
Wanting caring, wanting sleep (ah)
   C            G      Dm  D
But thinking I did worst of all
               C                 G      Dm  D
Because you told me that’s the case

        C                     G      Dm  D
And I want the things that I’m not allowed to touch
   C                G Dm       D
A sense of something pure like love
      C                G           Dm  D
And I need the things you told me I did
                C     G         Dm  D
And it’s the grossest sense of sickening
       C                         G         Dm  D
And I should’ve listened to my inner voice
C           G
Speaking up
       Dm       D
But I never spoke up
     C        G      Dm      D
And thinking I did worst of all
            C    G
Cannot allow it
           Dm     D
Cannot allow it
           C      G
Cannot allow it
           Dm     D    C
Cannot allow it